A note on my three blogs


A note on my blogs

(1) vio; in love with india - this one is the main blog about my Indian adventures, which started in 2005. I don't write much on this blog these days because I prefer to write privately in the confidential blog. But check out the categories and the index to figure out your way. I have kept some older posts not about India but which I still find interesting or relevant in Old words. Also check out my new, fun category Only in India in which I post photos of funny, unique, Indian situations...

(2) vio; sounds of india - this is my blog of sounds, because India wouldn't be as incredible if it was not so vibrant and just so full of incredible sounds!

(3) vio; confidential - this an extension of my main blog in which I post entries I do not want to reveal to the entire webspace for privacy or sensitivity reasons. You must receive an invitation from me and then accept the invitation to be able to read it. You may email me if you are interested in receiving an invitation.

Enjoy!

Wednesday, 17 December 2008

Edinburgh

I am back in scotland now.

Imagination is always more exciting than reality. Reality is. No-thing is exciting in reality. Things are, full stop. It is only in the mind that the excitment is. In reality excitment doesn't exist. It seems so fucking clear to me right now.

And so, I was pretty excited by the idea of coming back to Scotland, but really it wasn't that exciting. Seeing the castle lit at night was just the castle I had seen for years. As I arrived I saw in myself some reactions that are solely conditioned to my living in Scotland, like thanking the bus driver when I got out, which was lovely. Seeing fat people eating crisps clearly wasn't, and reminded me why I had wanted to leave at the first place...

But it is nice to be here. It feels like home, a little as if I had never left. The best was to find the homely flat again, and Robert, and 'my' room which doesn't feel empty like it did when I left Scotland, since I've been living in empty rooms with just my rucksack in India for a year. I need nothing more. and I am glad to be here because I feel a lot more independent than when I was at my father's... This context makes evolution possible - like nothing could happen further for me in France as there is no way I would build something there; I was in a dead-end now. That said, I don't know if I will start something again in Edinburgh either, but at least being here will allow me to find out...

The big difference, I guess, is that I feel like I am from another planet. Even more sharply than before. The meaning I have of life, I feel, is radically different from most people around me. I am here to be; I have nothing to do. Robert feels the same and that's why I'm happy to be here: at least there is someone from 'my' planet in the flat...

That said, Life is a miracle and Life is good.

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